10 Reasons to Date an Artist 5 Reasons to Date Me

First Read this: http://www.howaboutwe.com/date-report/10-reasons-to-date-someone-in-the-arts/
Number 10 is my favorite:

Artists lead exciting, passionate lives.

And when you date them, you get to be a part of it for a while.

Now I am going to give a list of 5 reasons why you would want to date me as someone who has always been involved with the arts:

1.  The arts have shown me I am passionate, I appreciate life, I cherish the little things
2.  From comedy classes and teaching kids I can now make any mundane activity fun because I find the joy in almost anything ( I'm also told I'm funny so that helps keep things lively too)
3. I am creative so I am always making something cool and interesting for you to enjoy or laugh at if it turns out really badly
4. Acting has taught me to know my objectives so I know what I want so there's no bullshiting
5. Because I know what I want to be I have a direction and path I'm following so isn't someone with the courage to follow the dream and take a risk kinda sexy???

Pets and Soldier Return Home Videos

There are so many of these videos floating around the internet universe. Not a week goes by on fb I don't see a link to one of them and I can't resist. the connection between humans and animals is so amazing This video however is my personal favorite http://teddyhilton.com/2012-05-26-soldier-returns-dog-cries  Clearly the dog is so overwhelmed to see it's owner again. It makes me think what it will be like when I'm reunited with all of our pets in MA I miss Zoey the most and plan on seeing her asap. I think Mahalo will show the most recognition because he will even bark when he hears my voice on the phone (once skyping he liked the ipad) and Wally I think will care less! My new room mate has a cat but I do miss PV's dog Thor I really want a pet but honestly feeding myself is hard enough but its the one year plan for sure. Animal's love and devotion never cease to amaze me ~S~

A One Year Commitment

About 2 weeks ago now I signed a one year lease with my Aussie Julius and our new roommate Kate
 ( also a Nichiren Buddhist).  This is a big step for me considering I am signing into a life plan. We only have one sub lease for the whole year and J has pretty much claimed that in case he doesn't apply for a visa here. It's important to me because ever since Nov 2009 I haven't been able to commit to anything really. It's been a survive day by day just make it through kind of mentality and that still is very much the case here. However at least there's a standard of time that extends beyond the immediate to the future- all crises aside I will be in West Hollywood for the next year. Of course that scares me but I also find so much relief in that. It means no moving, having a consistent home, and establishing a life here. I haven't the slightest clue what is in store for me I just hope it involves a camera, me in makeup, and a director saying action!

Kish and I out today!

Cabo, Comedy, and Karaoke

I think I have finally recovered enough from Tuesday to actually share a little something about it. First off if there is anything you should know about me is that I love karaoke, I would do it totally sober, but I don't think I ever have.  I haven't had a real night out since St Patrick's Day in a vain attempt to save money and my dignity surprisingly i'm still pretty sure neither are in tact! So when we decided to go to Cabo before Alex's show and it was buy one get one for any cocktail I knew what the pace of this outing would be. Cabo Cantina has several locations around LA and I have never once left their establishment not drunk. So after some girl talk, boy bashing, good food, and drink we headed to the show a mere one block over. The number one rule in ANY comedy show is do NOT sit in the front row. Maybe it was the booze or my desire for an entertaining night but we sat right in the front. Amy got covered in egg and so was "my phone." The show was fun and completely different then when I originally was helping them remember lines a few months back. Totally completely worth 5 bucks and the drive to Santa Monica. I didn't think I was too bad but when I tried to help clean up the confetti all over the floor by detaching the dust pan from the broom I smacked my face with the broom..... yes you read that correctly. Afterwards it was only a small one block a way to the Britannia Pub, infamous scene of my 25th birthday. I say infamous because one of the barbacks said "Aren't you Felcia's friend?" "Yea, I am" "I remember you the girl who threw up at the bar".......... ( insert slow embarrassed head nod here) I was reintroduced to another acquaintance from St Pats who said "I remember you now your the girl who drinks bacardi and coke" and apparently that's how i'm known to men in LA. Anyways I was completely distracted by the foreigners- 3 British guys on holiday. Fact: if there is a hot European anywhere in my vicinity I sense them like a hawk I don't even try it's just like instinct. Of course I loved being the center of 3 men's attention but even my puppy dogs eyes could not entice a single one to sing karaoke! Eventually I jumped in a spice girls rendition and 50 cent song- me rapping is always hilarious. I have to say all in all it was a pretty serendipitous night flowing from one fun thing to the next. I have to say although I am not a big partier when I do the rules go out the window- 9:30 am for work was a little rough though ~S~

In front of the Santa Monica Pier just after sunset= my favorite

The Point of No Turning Back

When it comes time to make a decision there inevitably is always a moment in time where the decision is in the balance. I always knew and planned for moving to LA but I remember trying to put my foot down on the gas to pull away from my childhood house and was stuck. 4 1/2 hours into the drive I nearly turned around I actually pulled over and had to tell myself it was just fear and that I could do anything. Since that moment I have not looked back once with regret because even if nothing ever happens here ever I did it. I think all kinds of relationships hit that point at some point to. Especially in dating I think you can always trace it to a moment you thought I could love this person or I could never love this person then all the rest of it is details. I think sometimes we try to trick ourselves or give false reasons for why we made the decisions we did but in the end we always knew from the beginning. If you listen to your heart truly you will know what the right decision is, always. ~S~

When Horoscopes Blow Your Mind

So I have always been a fan of horoscopes, tarot cards, anything of that sort. When I was 14 I made my email aquarius and my birthday and it been the same ever since. Today mine read "Under the combined influence of the Hermit and Justice you are craving for security and calm, and for sorting out your love relationships. You therefore decide to keep away from people and withdraw into the depth of your own soul, to assess your situation."I couldn't have written a more purely true statement then if i had actually written it myself. The day of prom my horoscope said something like "you have worked very hard for this day, celebrate, and don't forget to make you acceptance speech short" that night I was crowned prom queen! Of course I think there are hookey bs things out there but i do think overall there is something to it. Have you ever met someone and been like they are such a (insert sign here) and they were. I had one friend and he was so his sign it was unbelievable and I do think I am very much the passionate, emotional, caring aquarius.

Girls in their 20's

So I was told I would like the new HBO Show Girls but it's almost too much like my life to be interesting...however it has introduced me to some good music and I enjoy that not all the girls are super thin and traditionally pretty. The thing about your 20's is of course you are broke because well who knows what they actually want to be doing and if you do it's most likely out of reach. You are also bound to fall for the shitest guys you can find ya know the one who uses you and never calls I think maybe by 30 we'll get over this one. There's also that nagging feeling of shouldn't I be further along then I am at this point? but the truth is not really you are still young and have years to figure stuff out. I also think it's a time to learn from your mistakes and to make mistakes because hell if your doing the same damn thing at 40 it's kind of pathetic. Basically the show just confirms everything I already know/experience as a girl in my 20's. One of the songs on the show has the following lyrics:
(BTW the girl singer's name is Shannon)
 I make the same mistakes
 Feels like I never learn
 Always give way too much
 For little in return
 I haven't changed a bit
 I’m still not over it
 I make the same mistakes
 I make the same mistakes
 Listen to it here: If you read my blog you know one of my current goals is to stop making the same mistakes JBRown pointed out maybe I should stop falling for people that have no interest in dating me (Point JBrown)so what if my favorite guy at work happens to have a live in girlfriend he nicknamed me Massachusetts lol and my other super hot coworker pulled an elaborate prank on me today sure he drives 3 hours to visit his girl whatever but I'm learning I swear I'm learning! The broke factor well I don't have that figured out in the slightest either. However I do know what I want to be doing so I just have to work harder on the steps to get there. Dear Girls show writer also the main character (2nd point JBrown) you should write me as the 5th eccentric LA girl who brings in the sunny optimistic perspective!~S~

Now this is a LOVE song!!

Now if someone wrote this for you it would be pretty fucking epic!

The Good Ol Days of Facebook

First off I have barely ever in the history of fb deleted friends or messages. I literally had messages from the beginning of fb time 2005 from "my" football player, guys telling me how hott I was cheerleading lol, about how to get my keys to move in the first day of cheer camp. Then the Umass emails scheduling scene rehearsals, messages about papers, and group projects. Then condolence messages and I hope you wells. Of course all my party invites were scattered thought it all from bonfires, pool parties, and pvpa get togethers. I have one entire strand of a 2 year friendship in one insanely long message (revision they don't delete just archive that's BS unless you go into everyone and hit delete I never thought i'd say this but maybe I don't want my entire life achieved). Needless to say it was time to delete then there were the people. If I had even an inkling of desire to know about your life I kept you but seriously people from my freshman year of college I can't name one thing about- gone! It took 2 hours to delete 80 people and I gave up to be resumed another day.. my hand cramped! Fb get it together we want to delete stuff make it easier! I remember the good ol days when your school had to be on the list and in order to sign up you had to a valid school email that matched the list. Those were standards so you could post about you college parties, hookups, and mishaps. Now I shutter to think what some people can see if they go back far enough considering almost EVERYONE I know has fb yes even my grandfather. College is such a unique once in a life time experience that really should not be shared with the world. Now I love being able to see pictures and messages from my friends all over the world and my cousin Joan in Ireland it's great for that but timeline come on I don't want a digital record of my life in public I just don't. Right now I go from being born (to one parent Patty apparently I never linked my dad as my Dad?!? and Jennie Brown as my older sister) to the Basketball Hall of Fame in 2004 what?!?!??! I'm too much of a sentimentalist to delete the whole thing and start a new account but part of me really wants to it seems easier but there still is a cyber record of an account not that you can "see" but of course it exists you can never really delete something from the internet (note to self stop posting party pics) ~S~
 PS I watered this down and sent it to fb feedback

An Emotional Nutcase

I am an emotional nutcase- I do not claim to not be I am fully admitting that I have no control over my emotions what so ever. At the moment when most people can breath and hold back tears I can't I just cry hysterically in the middle of my work...often. It's the same with happiness I am never just content but usually blissfully exhilarated. To me a minor offense is the end of the world and a small token of friendship a cherished item. There seems to be no middle ground when it comes to my feelings. You may wonder isn't this something you can work to control?!? Well I believe the answer is no or maybe. See I need to be emotional to be an actress if I can't cry on command what good am I? Well I can cry on command and laugh and convey all the entire spectrum of emotions because I am an actress and am in touch with my feeling and have no regrets at how I feel because it's my truth. Now doesn't that lead me into making a ridiculous spectacle of myself on occasion- it sure does- but I would rather a million times over know and be able to say how I feel then repress them for even a second. Because honestly what's the point of life without a little passion??? ~S~

Memory Removal

Have you ever thought about what it would be like to completely erase someone from your mind? I'm talking complete no existence Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Style gone from your memory. As a tagline from the movie poster says: You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story. I use to think that everything teaches you something and that you should never wish to forget any part of your life because it makes who you are. Now i'm inclined to reconsider... maybe somethings just are to painful to recall. I don't mean that you can't overcome them but just that it would be easier if you didn't have to. If given the chance like in the movie would you remove someone from your memory???

Surprises

So my roomate Pv is the only one with a mail key so often she comes by and just slide our mail under our doors so we see it. Tonight I was just chilling and looked over to see another postcard!! I felt like I got a present. My bridesmaid dress also was in front of my door earlier today so it was a good mail day. I really do LOVE getting mail!!! It does so excite me :)

Your Spirit Animal

There was this one day in 4th grade when we had Native Americans come into our class and do a presentation about their culture and traditions.The man said "I love the sound of the rain I would rather listen to falling rain then music any day." I was shocked I thought 'I love the sound of rain too' and no adult had ever said something like that to me before. At one point we all went around the circle and picked an Indian name. When it came to me for whatever reason I was stuck he suggested "Sea Otter" which I joyfully agreed to. Between my new name and the rain comment I was enamored with what they were saying. From that day on the Sea Otter always kind of stuck with me. While other kids picked lions or elephants when it came to projects I picked the Sea Otter -River Otters didn't appeal to me half as much. In 6th grade we had one such project on the classification of any animal. I learned that sea otters are one of the only creatures that can eat sea urchins they get one from the ocean bottom then resurface lie on their backs and use a rock to hammer open the urchin = genius. I also love the way they play. They twist, turn, chase, flip and I spent many a summer imitating them when no one was looking in my pool. One site describes the otter spirit animal as "strong family bonds, adaptability, maternal instincts, playfulness, and being good natured. Otters are monogamous creatures who mate for life. although it is the female who raises the offspring almost completely alone. Otters frolic in the water and play, but they are also skillful hunters." I started thinking about my love for otters after watching this video the other day

How precious is that? First off these are River Otters but they are still amazing- look how the play and interact with the baby- they are sooooo smart! At a zoo once I connected with this spider monkey and when I put my hand up to the glass it did too matching right up with mine- it was insane! Kristen Bell recently shared her experience when her boyfriend brought a sloth to their house for her birthday and she really flips if you haven't checked it out it's worth a watch http://ellen.warnerbros.com/2012/01/kristen_bells_sloth_meltdown_0131.php I feel like I would react the exact the same way if for some reason I could interact with a sea otter. Swimming with dolphins was the closest I've got and it's such a surreal experience when your just so close to these amazing animals. 

So want to find out what animal you most embody the spirit of??? Take this test: http://www.jerismithready.com/quiz/ I got swan which looking at the description I think is pretty much me

You are a Swan! (your score: 28)

Characters: Tereus, Kalia in the Aspect of Crow trilogy
Powers: Foretelling future through dreams, dream-walking
Swans are idealistic, open-minded, and passionate. Your good nature often leads people to think they can take advantage of you, but they should be careful—beneath that serenity lies a fighting spirit. Your love is fierce and unconditional, fueled by the certainty that it should last forever.
Best matches: Wolves, Horses, Otters
Watch out for: Cougars, Foxes, Hawks

Have you ever had an interaction with an animal that just blew your mind???

Obsession of the Week

I'm the kind of person who once they find something they like I rarely budge on changing it. Do you know in marketing they rarely market specifically to people over 60 because they feel by that point in life you've pretty much decided what brands you like and don't like. I literally would rather pay a dollar more for a product I like then one that's on sale bad for my wallet good for business?!?!? One a week on facebook I usually proclaim what my obsession of the past week was. Now since I am avoiding that social media at all costs I will on Sundays write it here. Recent obsessions included, edamame,  Depeche mode's Enjoy the Silence, and this past week it was Demetri Martin. Well I finally watched Taking Woodstock starring Demetri the only feature film I've ever been in-the scene I was prominently shoot was cut, of course, but I can still be seen in one scene. I was told by a family friend that they think I would like his comedy and I REALLY do- it's witty. He makes drawings, and sings, and had these word play jokes that make you chuckle not roll over laughing but it's subtle and smart (not a big fan of slapstick comedy in general). After one comedy I special I was like okay I like this and started watching his show. That's when it then hits a small obsession point like goggling in tour dates and Wikipedia searches. Hes 40?!?!?!? wtf he looks 28! When the obsession of the week is food it becomes very dangerous!!!! Then after the initial interest that leads to obsession it evolves into a slow fade of nothingness...therefore becoming the obsession of the week! I have a feeling this week's obsession is going to be Jasmine since I just spent 2 hours trying to identify the smell via google searches because the flowers smelt so nice outside when I was reading! lol ~S~

Pleased by Postcards

Today I received an unexpected postcard from Craig, a friend traveling all over the East, and I was ecstatic. This one came on the coattails of a postcard I received last week from Indonesia... which arrived 2 weeks after my coworker had come back :) I remember asking my mom once on our yearly trip to Hampton Beach why we didn't send our friends postcards (isn't that what you do on vacation??). She told me by the time we we sent them we would already be home- logical yes but I thought "I love getting postcards so I want to send them!" The art of writing postcards is much like writing love letter- mostly lost. For most people years of getting bills in the mail has pretty much trumped the excitement of getting anything fun via post. However not for me I still love it. Ever since I was kid one of my favorite parts of Christmas was hanging all the cards up around our door posts it looked like a little collection of love from everyone we knew. Over the years I have had the immense fortune to have traveled to many exciting places and in turn have met exciting people who also travel to exciting places. I've learned the best way to get something you want is ask even if seems silly. So I began asking will you send me a postcard? If you were to ever see my face when I get them you'd know it would be worth the trouble sending it. I'm like a little kidding opening up a birthday gift- full of excitement and wonder. Of course I love the message and the picture but I also like the stamps and postage marks making each one unique and special. I have been blessed to have been sent some really amazing ones from all over the world including Iceland, Philippines, Korea, Vinius:Lithuania, Marburg: Germany, Bath& Dunster &Whitby:England, Hollywood:USA (from Conor before I ever moved here), Disneyland:USA, Barcelona: Spain and now added Indonesia and Thailand. A whopping gorgeous 15 postcards not to mention 2 more vintage postcards of Monaco and Paris I picked up in a flea market in Nice with actual messages on them!!! When I was in Liverpool they had a display of postcards John Lennon sent his son in this double sided glass so you could see both sides- since then I've always envisioned an interchangeable coffee table or wall divider made up of these treasured postcards. I'm not sure why they still fascinate me I wonder the same about letters??? Maybe it's the nostalgic aspects of them or the idea that you know someone is thinking of you for even 5 minutes of their day. I'm not sure but all I know is if your traveling I would LOVE to get a postcard from you!!! ~S~

Selfishness VS Survival

This is what most people think. I think: what can I do to get my needs met?

I would like to pose a a question: when one is in survival mode are you really being selfish or just doing what is necessary to survive? I like many women have spent a good chunk of my time taking care of others and not always myself. I spent an entire year dedicating all my energy to a little amazing girl as her teacher, friend, and advocate. She really loved me unconditionally in a way that was so pure and truthful. She never asked me to devote myself in that way just like kids don't ask parents to give up their wishes in order to get what they want, a trip to Disney vs a trip to Europe for instance. When I was driving to LA I had A LOT of time to think... when your alone in a car with just your thoughts for 8 hours you learn things. One thought that came to mind was that at some point I knew people would feel I left them. For me it was never a question of coming or not coming here it was just a matter of when, I had decided that when I was 16. I haven't been the best supporter of friends since I've been here I actually feel like maybe I have cut people off. I didn't intend any malice but it's just that I only have so much energy and I need to devote that to succeeding and living here. Since everyday is a constant battle to come out the other side alive and well it leaves no time to focus on anything petty. Yes that is a selfish statement but it also is somewhat about self preservation.
S Size Up The Situation (surroundings, physical condition, equipment, & supplies)
U  Use All Your Sensuous, undue haste makes waste
R  Remember Where You Are
V Vanquish Your Fear and Panic
I   Improvise 
V  Value Living
A  Act Like The Natives
L  Live By Your Wits, But For Now, Learn Basic Skills
I am a humanitarian through and through last month I joined a group solely dedicated to being of service to others so I am in no way advocating egocentricity. However I do believe your 20's is about finding out who you are and what is your purpose on this planet. I believe and have always believed that my purpose is to inspire and engage others through my acting. Whenever someone said "oh don't you want a backup plan?" or "do you know most actors are penniless?" it never swayed me in the least. Sure in 10 years from now I may have changed my mind about the whole thing but for now there is nothing that could persuade me to stop trying to be a film actress. I knew the price would come with many sacrifices- missing holidays, major life events, and even the everyday small things amongst close friends. I am trying to find a balance between selfishness and survival and I'm chanting to find that equilibrium.

"My Type" Over Time

One of the first question almost any gathering of new girlfriends brings up is "what's your type?" I've noticed that my type has definitely gone through distinct changes. In middle school I was all about the jocks. It's the typical South Hadley way and I was a cheerleader so it seemed natural. Once I got to high school musicians became my thing. At PVPA the hottest coolest kids would rarely go to class and play guitar on the lawn or steps. In college I was attracted to nerds. The kid at the end of the hall who stuttered and blushed when he talked to girls was my crush. Theater geeks are a whole kind of unique nerd and that covered the rest of college. When I was exploring the world and afterwards I became so intrigued by intellectual types. Guys who are smart, educated, and can hold a conversation about a variety of topics is a super big turn on. Now in LA I found myself rarely getting to even interact with straight men regardless of what type they may be. Most men out here are one of these 3 types: actors aka selfish, writers aka self involved, townies aka no motivation. Is it too much to ask for a little substance?

I think this is funny and only slightly relates to the blog post

Words are Sexy

If your a book lover, literary type, or scrabble champion you are aware of the vast power of using the perfect word. I have always had a fondness for "out of the ordinary" vocabulary. My downfall to using words like behoove is that I have learning disabilities that prevent me from fully being able to write my brilliant thoughts coherently and I can't spell words by sounding them out.Writing this blog has been immensely helpful because I'm writing for pleasure instead of school so I actively am trying to make my writing readable and knowing my common mistakes I am actually finding them. My passion for word play is a direct inherited ability from my father. He is so good at creating little sayings and words games, trust me if he ever challenges you to solve a wheel of fortune puzzle he WILL beat you. A few years back he came up with Carin for Karen (brilliant). I particularly remember this one time I was entering into 2nd grade and was either going to be in classroom 2A or 2B. The day my assignment arrived he asked "2B or not 2B that is the question?" Being only 7 years old I had to be explained why that is funny. Now as a 25 year old actress I can truly appreciate the beauty of the joke. I spent most of my senior year in college making up descriptive alliterations with my friend Draper about our theater department. We would amuse our selves for hours creating these little sayings and repeating key words as a secret little code when we were around people which gave us unending amusement. After college I worked with a little girl who was non-verbal. I then saw the power of body language, facial interpretations, and sounds and how they could replace meaning but not fully expression. When she would say something is had so much power because they were rare and truthful. When she used her communication device to write her choice of words sometimes would be surprising but accurate and showed her personal preferences in word selection. Do you know 80% of what we say is all from a set of "core" words we use all the time and only 20% are fringe words. You can communicate almost anything with core words instead of fringe words "get that" instead of "can I have the spatula". However even thought it is extremely affective it lacks a certain appeal and sexiness. For instance I have an attraction to using British phrases like "quite lovely" and "posh." I feel it adds a little flavor to everyday speech. Anyone who loves literature can tell you the use of one word vs another can make or break a whole idea even a whole book. In scrabble one letter can certainly make you victorious or keep you from a triple letter score. I recently got into Demetri Martin's comedy sketches. He makes little drawing and songs that are usually based on word play and it's subtle genius. When all is said and done words are sexy when you used to enhance an idea and turn something ordinary into something powerful.

Here are some fun words from different languages http://aimdanismanlik.wordpress.com/2012/02/24/awesomely-untranslatable-words/